Giving myself permission

Since my last post I have been giving myself permission to be 'lazy'. Today spent all day at a course, leaving home 7.45am and coming back just before 6pm feeling exhausted. Instead of forcing myself to get things done at home, or feeling guilty about things not getting done, I told myself I deserved to have a lazy night where my only criteria is to stay awake. I need to pick up my son from work and if I fall asleep beforehand I will end up staying up too late after we are back. It is a 20 minute drive each way, and it usually wakes me up to be out and about, especially if I have had an afernoon snooze.

I am still working on getting to bed at a decent time, and it is still not a consistent thing for me. I think it will take a while to 're-tune' this body, and everytime I am staying up late I delay the process.Tonight I have been reading some blog posts, reading the online newspapers and doing some general surfing. Everytime I start to feel the 'should be doing something useful' feeling, I am telling myself that I deserve to have a night off.It is nearly 9.30pm, and I am expecting a phone call any minute now, to say that it is time to go on pick-up duty. Once I am back home, I plan to go to bed and read until I fall asleep, which I don't expect to take long at all....