Sabotage

Why do I do this to myself? I had a terrible night last night, where I was up around 6 times. Not much sleep was had at all, and that has totally wiped me out today. The whole day has been wasted. I didn't go for a walk. I ate a LOT of chocolate. I have had no fruit and no vegetables. Why do I do this?

Good and Bad

The bad: I have not been going to bed at a proper time, and my fruit eating has been nearly non-existing this week. I have also let my bedroom get messy again :-(
The good: For more than two weeks now I have gone for a walk in the morning every day except 2 mornings (this morning, and Sunday when I slept in and it was too hot by the time I was up). I am very happy that I have kept up going for these little walks. This morning I was running late, and I felt that I shouldn't be any later in to work so dropped the walk. I need to learn that this is NOT a good thing to do. No one would have missed me at work, and as it was I ended up working back until 7 anyway. I really need to get it into my head that I have to prioritise my health and let other things give. By the time I got home it would have been nice to go for a walk, but during the day I started getting very bad ovulation pains - every step I walk hurts! So I am going to have a bath soon and have an early night instead.

Done

I have got my list done - but I was procrastinating a lot with the 10 minute tidy. Pretty silly really... more than half of the time was spent folding and putting away clothes that were in a washing basket, but I also got time to sort through a couple of things. It might take a long time, but if I keep this up I will eventually get through everything :-)

• eat two pieces of fruit as snacks - done (an apple and a mango which should have been left to ripen a bit longer.... my mouth is feeling tingly from it.
• go for a short walk as soon as I get home - done
• spend 10 minutes tidying/sorting in my bedroom - finally done :-)
• do 10 minutes of yoga streches - done * 2

I like seing my list all done :-)
even if it is only a very short list...

I recently checked out Blog This. They had a Dream Home challenge that I really wanted to do - but this last week has just been too crazy... even though the challenge is finished over at Blog This, I would like to do a post about this, as this is something I have thought a bit about in my 'quest' to find me. A little while ago, I had absolutely no idea what my dream home would be. I did not know what I liked, how I would like to live or where. I just knew it wasn't how I was (and am) living. There are still a lot of question marks, but I have gradually started to learn about what I like. But - this is a post for another day!

Just a very quick post to keep myself accountable. I had a long day, and after I got back I had no energy to get anything done. But, in the end I dragged myself up and tidied the bedroom for 10 minutes, and then I did 10 minutes of exercises for my back and some stretching. If I hadn't posted last night that I would do some tidying, I would not have got any of it done.
For tomorrow I am going back to my goals of last week (leaving out the bedtime one, as the weekends tend to be a bit all over the place - and tonight it is already 11.30pm):

• eat two pieces of fruit as snacks
• go for a short walk as soon as I get home
• spend 10 minutes tidying/sorting in my bedroom
• do 10 minutes of yoga streches

As I need to pick up boychild 2 from school tomorrow I will be home at a reasonable time - and I am looking forward to that!

Blogging?

What happened to my blogging?? I think work ate my blogging time and blogging energy. I was going so good last week - right up until Friday when I was at work until after 10pm. Over the weekend I was burying myself in a book - I was escaping from the thought of a meeting I was having at work on Monday - a meeting I was not looking forward to. Then on Monday I had meetings in two different locations to where my office is, so I spent quite a bit of time in the car - and I did not get home from work until 9.30.
Tuesday was a really hot day here - and although I was home around 5pm, I was feeling totally wiped out from the heat. My aircon has died, and boy did I feel that yesterday!
Today has been another day of working at a different location to my office, and with the hour long drive back I was not back in my office until after 4.30pm. Because I had a lot to catch up on, it was 8.45 by the time I was driving home.
Tomorrow I have to go in to the city for the day, so I will probably feel pretty wiped out by the time I get back on the train.
So far this week I have not done any of the things on my list - no walks, no yoga, no tidying up/sorting out my bedroom. The last two days I have managed to get my fruit and some salad into me (a very good one yesterday which included tuna and mixed beans) - so I am happy about that.
This week was supposed to be a very quiet week - but somehow I have ended up with a really busy week instead.
I need to get back to posting my little list, cause it works!!
Because I know tomorrow is going to be hectic, I will have only one thing on my list:

• 10 minutes tidying/sorting in my bedroom (stuff is starting to take over my little yoga patch again!)

So that's it - no matter how tired I am, I should be able to get this one little thing done!
Now I need to get to sleep - early morning tomorrow, I have to get to the trainstation by 8am - I will only be leaving from home a short time earlier than usual, but I need to be more organised in the morning - I often eat my oat porridge breakfast at work, can't do that tomorrow!
That's it for me - Good night :-)

I am happy - I got all the things on my list done today, apart from the 'going to bed by 11pm' bit :-)

• eat two pieces of fruit as snacks - done, two apples at work


• go for a short walk as soon as I get home - done


• spend 10 minutes tidying/sorting in my bedroom - done


• do 10 minutes of yoga streches - done (I actually spent more than 20 minutes on it)


• go to bed by 11pm - should manage

At my work I keep soy-linseed bread in the freezer and usually I have cans of tuna in my office, and for emergencies when I run out of tuna I also have a jar of peanut butter there. Today I was duing a course in a different place, so this morning I made a salad with baby spinnach, cherry tomatoes, cucumber, shredded cabbage, cheese cubes and some hardboiled egg in. It was really nice and filling. I think I need to bring that kind of lunch to work more often.

It felt really good to do some yoga. I don't understand why I don't do it more often! I guess having the space next to my bed cleared will help me with that.

Wednesday update

Today did not go so well. I did not get home from work until after 7 - went for a walk (a longer one this time), then made dinner. I was eating dinner after 9, and then chatted with my boys. Have not seen my oldest for a couple of days, so it was nice to catch up.

List update:

• make a phonecall about the document (I know I would procrastinate on this) - not done, waiting for email
  


• spend 10 minutes tidying/sorting in my bedroom - not done
  


• go for a short walk as soon as I get home - done :-)


• do 10 minutes of yoga streches - not done


• eat two pieces of fruit as snacks - done, two apples at work


• go to bed by 11pm - should manage

So, I didn't get to the things I wanted to. But if I hadn't made the list, which seems to commit things in my head when I post it here, then I most likely would not have gone for a walk when I got home, and I more than likely would not have remembered to bring my fruit to work this morning. So even though I did not get all the things done, I am still happy that I kept the momentum going with the walking. Tomorrow I have a long day at work again, leaving home at 7.30 and won't be back until around 6. I am at a course in a different location to my office all day, so I need to resist the temptation to 'duck in quickly' to my office once I get back from the course, and go home instead and do some 'looking after me' (or the house -either will make me feel better!).

I won't make a list for tomorrow, as it will be the last 5 items on today's list repeating (I will leave the phonecall item until I have got the email).

I think I can see a slight pattern developing where the action of blogging is helping me focus on some me things. I just need to keep this going :-)

Since it is only 15 minutes until it is 11, and I still have to brush my teeth etc, I will reply to the comments on the previous post tomorrow night. Good night!